Friday, January 25, 2008

Reflecting on deeper things...


I went to the Bountiful Temple tonight for Ward Temple Night (unfortunately the Salt Lake Temple has been closed for winter maintenance), but tonight was a good moment of reflection. I had just spent the majority of last Saturday, January 19, 2008, there at the Bountiful Temple. I had learned a lot that day, but had seemed to forget a lot of it in less than a week. Many of my previous frustrations had crept back into my life in a matter of days. On Saturday, one of my dear friends, Dan, was sealed for time and all eternity to a beautiful girl. I was able to be there in the morning for their sealing, my first real live sealing ceremony (its a wedding ceremony performed in our sacred temples). Sometimes weddings and receptions are hard for me, I find myself with a twinge of guilt wondering when it is going to finally be my turn. I do what I am supposed to, I am a good person, I am not totally unfortuante looking, am I? Haha...well, Satan encourages me to think along those lines. Anyway, it was such a blessing to be there for the sealing. As I sat there waiting for Dan and his future wife to come in, I had time to look at all the people, family and friends, that love him so much and were so excited for him. There were tears of joy shed. I sat in the corner and thought. I realized and understood for the bajillionth time that my Heavenly Father really does love me. I know that He is completely aware of my situation in life, my triumphs, my struggles, my fears, and even the deepest, most righteous desires of my heart. I know that even if I don't have all of the answers that I need, He does. He can see the beginning and the end, He can see my potential. He ultimately knows what is best for me and when it is best for me. So even though I don't have all of the answers, if I trust in Him, I will be taken care of. I realized as well that the decision of whom to marry and when is so important, where is not a question...it will be in the temple, the house of the Lord. I distinctly thought, "Well, Heavenly Father, you know better than me...you know who that special guy is and when the timing will be right, and I want it to all be right, so I will wait. I will wait as long as I need to so that I can be happy with someone for forever. I want someone that will love and cherish me and help me to achieve all of my righteous desires and gosls...so for that, I will wait as long as I need to." Sometimes waiting for those answers is the hardest part, but welp, we are here to be tested and gain wonderful qualities like patience...apparently one that I need to work on more :) I love you all. All of my posts won't be like this, I promise. I just want you all to know that I love you wherever you are in this big world, and so does someone much greater than I. I attached a photo from Dan's wedding day...because it was a happy day for me. I needed it, and obviously I needed to reflect on it all again tonight. Love yall!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

I can really be part of the family now!

My mom asked me two days ago when I was going to join the family and start a blog. See, it's a sad story...one day I went to visit my mom's blog and there is a spot that lists friends, and another spot that lists family. All of my brothers and my sister and their families are listed. I was not. I honestly thought for 2 seconds that my mom had forgotten about me and didn't love me anymore. No, just kidding. I quickly realized that they were links to all of their respective blogs, and I would never be listed there unless I got my own blog. So I have a free afternoon (after taking Nana to her doctor's appointment) and I am going to start...I do want to be part of the family, afterall. I have succumb to the pressure. I am excited to keep you all posted on new and exciting things in my life. Many of you have mentioned that you have not heard from me or received my bilingual emails, so this might have to suffice. I love you all, always feel free to call me, email me, or post comments...I love to talk.

I AM LOVING LIFE!

I AM LOVING LIFE!
Still wishing my Mom was closer with all of the wedding preparation...